why do i keep on hoping something good will happen?
why hv i given up hope on life...?
i hv no mood to mingle with others.... i just want to be lost....
or just spend time with my friends....people who understand me...
it so hard to be able to mingle with my family... i feel like an outsider...
i feel that they look down on me....
its like i dont know how to do anything... like i cant be counted to do anything...
am i that bad.... is it really... that i am useless?
i dont know...
my cousin's wedding is tomorrow...
i dont know if i am jealous.... i see her... i want a relationship.... i want a companion
someone that i can say is mine...
but i dont know when that is going to happen...
all of this had made me grumpy person...
kids i am ok with... i think
but adults make me so annoyed... i just want to stay far from them... is that mad...?
even now... i just want them all gone...
and tomorrow i just want to go invisible... cause tomorrow if i dont do anything up to their standard... am sure they will just look down on me....
am watching tv....
the joker in the movie... says... do anything... ride a bicylec... eat anything... but dear young girls and young boys never fall in love....cause i guaranty you will get ur heart broken...
i got mine broken... n now i cant seem to get to set right...
am tired am tired!!!!
when will my new heart come?
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