i am missing him

today its weird... i am missing him... the person who broke my heart..
i dont want to remember the date but i do.. do i want to remember this for the rest of my life...?
on 26 nov 2009 it all started.... n it ended in feb 2010 just a few months...

i miss him... but why should i miss him...
the last time he meet me he wore a striking green t-shirt... well the last date with him.. now i think back he didnt even bother to dress up to meet me... (the previous day he meet his ex... now his wife)
arghhh
it so painful to know that i was nothing to him...
i loved him.. i was attached to him... i shared everything... thinking he is the one... but no he wasn't
n that pain is so painful... i cried just now while bathing... remembering this... i had to stop myself cause it not worth it he is a married man... n he had no feelings for me...

now i ask myself... why do i need this...?
why do i keep on hoping that someone will come n mend my broken heart...?
tell me that i am worth it..
tell me that i can be loved...
tell me that i am pretty...

i feel so lost... i dont like this.. i want it gone... i want this hope gone..i dont want to hope for someone...
someone who is going to hurt me again!!!!

let's hope this hope i have never comes...