am just doing it to myself...!!!!

i posted some nice pictures on the forum... well they were nice to me...
n i was expecting positive responds from them.. but i didnt... no responds today... how sad....
actually i did get 3... but i was like wanting more...

call me sick... maybe i just like the attention.... ah... i think that idiot(my ex told me that after breaking up with me) ( i used to call him idiot for fun welll now i mean it

so not given attention...
i think i am craving for that more... i want ppl to notice me... sick sick sick...
i didnt used to be like this... b4 the whole ex thing... i didnt bother... cause i knew then that i didnt matter to others... i just had to live... but now it bothers me... knowing i dont matter makes me restless... it keeps bugging me... it makes me sad...

but i dont want to be sad.. i dont want to go into depression again... hell no.... it was bad really bad...
now when i see myself then... i feel pity for myself...

but like it is always said... experince makes u more mature... it has... n also more horny lol....

i really like going back to the forum again n again... helps to spice up my day...

ok my horoscope for the week says that as Sagittarius (my ex is a sag) entering my Moon this fri... so it is a good thing for my love life....
the wierd thing... my ex's ex who is now his wife.. is the same horoscope with me... lol
so basically its love in the air for her too n she is very lucky cause she has the "sag" with her

lol.... i hate them... lol.... cause they just broke me to pieces n i dont know how to fix myself... she calls me thier angel... who got broken in the way of helping them.... hmmmm lol...

i think she is the luck one.... i am just full of bad luck....

ok enough of them... i am sad... n my eyes r tearing... i think i should just sleep.... i dont want to be sad... so i just need to sleep. n not think....

i think i will get up at 4in the morning n do work.... better like that...

so nitez....
be good n hv fun

lets hope sleep comes faster than tears...