Sunday, May 8, 2011

why do i fall in love easily?

yes its happening again... i think i am falling again...

i met this guy... well lets say we hv thins weird relationship...its more of no string attach kind of thing...

so i know he is a flirt... but yet i felt for him.. i told him that but he explain to me that he's not the one for me... n i deserve someone better... wht he said is true but the feelings... why cant i just take it n stuff it some where that i can never find it again...

i know he is closer with this one gal n i am jealous of it... she wrote on his FB that if u love 2 ppl at a time go for the second one cause if u really love the first one you wont fall in love the second time... its so true right...

btw she has a bf.. but she's close with him... so am guessing... n assume ( an ass of u n me...) she has told him that she loves him...

i just wish i can stay away from him... hv no contact with him.. i know its hard.. i know i will cry it out.. but its the right thing to do...  i must never fall in love again... cause its never meant for me.... i hv to stop.. i have to numb that part on me... love is not for me... love is not for me.. love is not for me...!!!!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

age!!!

today,  a cousin of mine introduced a guy to me... she just gave him the phone n we spoke like less then 4 min i think...

but only after that i found out he is 25... n i am 27... hmmmmmmmmmm i feel old...

hmm its going to be hard for me to find someone since i am getting old... i prefer someone who is about 33 to 28.. someone matured that me.. someone that i can look up to... someone that know more than me....

but seeing the situation of my culture.. guys then to look for younger gals like age 24 to 26... n i am out of that age group... so am i dome? is there no one for me? will i be a spinster? i think i am hving the spinster symptoms... i get mooody too fast.. too sensitive... too sure of myself... etc so basically i feel that i need to start getting a grip and no more fairy tales for me...no more waiting for prince in shinning Armour.. cause am getting old..